Joe
was a very good-looking 28 year old guy, with short and wavy dark hair, a lean
and muscular build and a drop-dead gorgeous smile. He had regular facial features, which
included a sensual mouth, a dark moustache, a straight and classical-looking
nose, and sexy hazel eyes. In fact, his
eyes were so compelling that they could get and keep the attention of women of
all ages. It was small wonder that Joe
always had at least one girlfriend at any given time. It was generally assumed that he was
considered a stud or ladies’ man, and that meant he had to be good in bed. Women always like that about a man, even
though they might deny that fact.
What
wasn’t so obvious was that Joe needed sex so much that he had to have it at
least three times a day and often more than that. However, he never had to advertise the fact
that he was sexually available and so, he was always able to get a date, even
on short notice. The reason Joe’s sexual
appetite was not so obvious was that he never wanted to appear over-anxious to
his date-of-the-moment, and thus overplay his hand, possibly frightening away
his prospective date. Rather, he wanted
to appear as a low-key, shy kind of guy and he liked being that way. It made him into a man of mystery and created
even more desire in the women he met so that they just had to find out more
about him.
Needless
to say, Joe’s sex life was very active as a result of his constant need to
pursue sexual activity and adventure with the opposite sex, and his very unique
ability to create a cloud of mystery around himself. Most women thought that because he seemed
shy, he couldn’t possibly be a guy who’d had many women already, and that he
could probably use a little “push” to get something sexual going between him
and his soon-to-be-paramour. If the
women who were interested in him had known the truth, it might have shocked them. But, whether it would have turned them off,
it’s hard to say. All in all, Joe’s sex
life was one to be envied by most other men who weren’t nearly as successful at
this very subtle seduction game that he loved to play. They hadn’t mastered the knack of attracting
women the way Joe had. And, Joe was a
master at this game.
This
pattern of sexual activity continued in Joe’s life for a long time. Still, he was incredibly lonely. He just couldn’t seem to get close to any of
the women he dated. Perhaps it was
because somehow, he knew that his dates couldn’t trust him if any of them got
into a real relationship with him. He
felt that if a woman knew what he was really like – a secretly raving
nymphomaniac – that, in her right mind, she would never trust him enough to be
able to develop closeness and intimacy with him. In a sense, despite having a sex life that was
to be envied by most men, Joe, nevertheless, craved the closeness of having one
special woman in his life. He also knew
it was a pipe dream as long as he continued to engage in promiscuous
behaviour. Not only was he a bad
emotional risk, but physically he knew that he would never expose his special
woman to STDs and other diseases (like HIV or AIDS) that are traditionally
associated with promiscuous sexual activity.
Eventually, he knew that he needed to change his promiscuous pattern of
behaviour, but didn’t know how he was supposed to go about it.
One
day, he met a young woman named Jayne, aged 24, who was attractive, but not
beautiful in the classical sense.
Compared to other women, however, she was considered pretty, with a good
figure and everything in the right place, but there were certainly many other
younger and more beautiful women around.
Still, she had a sex appeal all her own. Thus, she didn’t stand out in a crowd and it
would have been hard to see her as being a serious contender for Joe’s
affections. Jayne, for her part, found
Joe very attractive, as he was accustomed to, but she would not go out with him
on a date. Instead, she wanted to get to
know him as a friend. That meant they
talked a lot more than he was used to talking to any of his other dates. She wasn’t really a “date”, per se, to him –
there was no indication that she wanted any kind of physical contact with him
at all. For Joe, this was like a slap in
the face, except that, strangely, he wanted very much to be with her even
though he knew that sex was not likely to happen with her. Joe was strangely drawn to Jayne though he
wasn’t sure why he needed to see her.
After all, there were lots of other women who did want sex with him and
he needed to oblige them.
Jayne
liked Joe as a friend because she could handle him on that level. She knew he dated other women, but was not
aware of the extent to which he dated them.
She could see that he was very attractive to women and it didn’t
surprise her that he always had dates.
What she didn’t know about him was that he was actually a nymphomaniac –
someone who must have sex often. That’s
because Joe’s shyness made him seem relatively harmless, in the sexual
sense. Nevertheless, she liked him very
much as a person and found that they had things in common – books, music and
travel - and that was good enough for her.
If she had known about his secret sexual obsession, she would not have
given him the time of day. She, herself,
liked sex a lot though, and had had a number of boyfriends in the past, but
didn’t always feel the need to assert herself sexually. She thought he was a relatively safe bet and
wasn’t concerned about being with him physically. She just bided her time and felt that if the
time was right, she might indicate a physical interest in him.
Joe
was at first content to wait for Jayne to change her mind about him, but as
time went on, and she didn’t, he got really concerned. Meanwhile, his own feelings for her were
changing gradually to the point that he was developing real feelings for
her. It was becoming excruciatingly
difficult to be with her platonically though he knew that’s what she
wanted. But over time, he was becoming
more and more drawn to her physically and he just couldn’t understand why. After all, he could have had any woman he
wanted, except for her, any time. The
fact that he couldn’t have her drove him absolutely wild with
desire. His desire had built up so much
that he physically ached for her. Over
time, he became so obsessed with her that he started to ignore other women who
did want him, and he just couldn’t understand it. It was getting to the point where someone
would have to give in soon, him or her.
However, it didn’t appear that Jayne would be the one to cave in
first. She was playing it real cool and
not acting like Joe meant anything important to her, and that only made him
want her all the more. It was becoming
impossible for him to concentrate in his daily life and to maintain his current
level of sexual activity. He seriously
started to slow down and he still didn’t understand any of it.
After
two years of seeing Jayne continually as a platonic friend and practically
giving up all other women, Joe thought he would go out of his mind. He had to have Jayne, yet he couldn’t. She was the one woman who had successfully
resisted him, and he had no idea why she was doing it to him. He thought maybe she was trying to torture
him, or that she must have something terribly wrong with her, or that she must
be gay, if she didn’t want him the way other women did. All he knew was that regardless of her
personal reasons for resisting him physically, he needed to have her. He was almost afraid now that if she left him
for whatever reason, he would not be able to cope with it. He didn’t want to admit it yet, but he
thought he might actually love her and it scared the crap out of him. He knew that if he really did love her, he
would be lost and for the first time in his life, a woman would have real power
over his emotional well being. It was a
very scary position for him to be in and not one he was used to.
Jayne,
for her part, was showing no outward signs of changing her mind about Joe and
their current level of involvement. She
knew that Joe was experiencing emotional turmoil and suspected that she was the
cause of it. Even Jayne was experiencing
her own emotional turmoil, but doing her best to hide it. She had thought that the relationship between
them was becoming increasingly close, which resembled a normal progression of
events. Joe seemed to want her very
much, but had not made one false move during the time of their friendship. She respected and trusted him without question
because of his decent treatment of her.
It never occurred to her that his behaviour towards her was very unusual
for him; she felt it was her due. But,
things were changing between them daily and she was seriously becoming very
drawn to Joe. So, it was becoming
increasingly difficult for her to keep resisting him. She thought she might even be falling in love
with him, yet did not know if he reciprocated those feelings and she was
desperately afraid that if he didn’t, she wouldn’t be able to handle it.
One
day, Joe had had enough of her seemingly distant attitude to him. He resolved to say something to her, anything
to arouse a reaction from her. So,
during one of their many deep conversations, he casually asked her to go away
with him on a trip. She looked extremely
shocked at this suggestion, and for a moment, did not respond. Then, she told him that she wasn’t interested
in him that way and that their friendship was what mattered to her the
most. Joe was totally devastated by her
answer. He had expected her to
capitulate (like all the others) and agree to be with him, at long last. He felt that the time had arrived to “fish or
cut bait”. She had to have some
kind of feelings for him, didn’t she?
And, if she did, she should do something about it, right? But, she, quite obviously, was not going to
do anything about it and it continued to drive him crazy. He still thought he would go out of his mind
if he couldn’t have her.
After
that, they continued to see each other occasionally, still on a purely platonic
level. He also continued seeing other
women as much as he ever had, and he presumed that she was seeing other
men. He decided not to pursue her
anymore and resolved not to think of her any longer as a possible date. In his mind, she would remain a good
friend. Eventually, he put the memory of
his wild desires into the back of his mind.
While he knew he’d never ever forget her, he also knew that she was a
lost cause where he was concerned. He
then decided to trim back his hectic sexual activities and look for the one
special woman who would be able to take away his loneliness and with whom he
could relate in a fairly normal way.
Finally,
a year later, he met her. She was a
good-looking woman named Beth and he loved her as both his best friend and his
lover. She provided him with the best of
both worlds. She was also close to his
age, 27. She had long, straight honey-blonde
hair, a lovely smile, a pert up-turned nose and clear blue eyes. Despite her features, she wasn’t a bathing beauty
(any more than Jayne had been), but she was very physically attractive to
him. He gave up all of his other women
and decided that Beth was worth doing this for.
He was no longer wracked with constant desire for an impossible
relationship with a woman (Jayne) whom he had put up on some kind of
pedestal. He now knew that such a
relationship was not worth the price he would have to pay for its
fulfillment. With Beth, he could be
truly loved for himself and truly love her for herself. He knew it was true love because he no longer
felt compelled to be with any other woman.
Amazingly enough, true love had finally found its way into Joe’s heart
and changed him, for good, into the kind of man who could both give and receive
love, fully and completely.
published by Authorhouse, copyright 2011, Anne Shier. All rights reserved.
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